Great to hear you're trying to turn things around LTPF. I do indeed wish you the best!
I don't think I've ever mentioned my "drinking history" here before. . . .
I really didn't drink much at all up until my early 30's, which I suppose was a good start. I'd buy a bottle of wine every now and then, and it would turn to vinegar before I ever finished it.
Then I became an elder. . . . .
It didn't start right away, but towards the end of my stint as an elder (right before I had a nervous breakdown), I went from not finishing a bottle of wine before it turned, to finishing half a bottle a night, to a bottle a night (not every night though).
After I stepped down, I was still an emotional wreck and used drinking to calm myself down quite frequently. Even so, it was certainly not a daily thing. Maybe 3-4 nights a week. There were also times I went for months without a drop to drink.
Pretty much stayed that way for years. Then a couple of years ago some major family stuff happened (I have not talked about this either here) and I started drinking every day.
Fortunately, I'm not on any medications, but even so, some of my most recent blood tests have showed elevated liver enzymes. . . . and even though they were just borderline, this has really freaked me out.
So, the other week I told my wife that I really need to cut WAY back, and to please remind me if it seems I'm falling back into this really bad pattern.
For the past week or so, I have had nothing to drink during weekdays, and I'll treat myself to a few pints of my favorite local craft beer on the weekends.
I've cut out hard liquor entirely (the daily vodka/gin martini ritual is done. Those were so tasty though .. . . . )
So, I guess what I'm saying is that you're not alone in this battle. Keep at it!